On The Table Read Magazine, “the best arts and entertainment magazine UK“, Here But Gone by Kim Padgett-Clarke is a heart-wrenching yet hopeful novel that follows a devoted family as they navigate love, grief, and unbreakable bonds after a sudden diagnosis of locked-in syndrome shatters their perfect life in an instant.
Kim Padgett-Clarke’s novel Here But Gone delivers a deeply moving narrative that captures the fragility of life and the enduring power of family bonds. Published recently and available in paperback, the book centers on an abrupt, life-altering tragedy that dismantles a seemingly idyllic existence, forcing its characters to confront vulnerability, grief, and redefined connections.



The Illusion of Control
Tom Seabrook embodies the archetype of success and stability. A dedicated businessman, he maintains a disciplined, health-conscious lifestyle while cherishing his loving marriage and his grown-up twins. Living in a beautiful home in the Lake District, Tom feels he has safeguarded his family’s future against uncertainty. His world is one of predictability and protection—until it isn’t.
In a single, devastating moment, Tom is diagnosed with locked-in syndrome, a rare neurological condition that leaves him fully aware and conscious but completely paralyzed and unable to speak or move. What was once a life of agency becomes one of silent observation, where Tom is trapped as a spectator in his own existence.
The Ripple Effects on Family
The true strength of Here But Gone lies in its sensitive portrayal of the emotional aftermath. The novel avoids sensationalism, instead delving into the quiet, internal battles that follow catastrophe. Tom’s wife transitions painfully from equal partner to primary caregiver, navigating exhaustion, sorrow, and shifting dynamics in their relationship. Their adult twins grapple with reconciling memories of a vibrant, guiding father with the immobile figure now before them, wrestling with feelings of helplessness, guilt, and frustration.
Communication becomes a profound challenge. Simple expressions of love, comfort, or guidance—once effortless—are now impossible for Tom, testing the family’s ability to remain connected. Through these struggles, Padgett-Clarke examines how roles evolve, assumptions about strength and independence crumble, and love persists amid profound change.
Themes of Presence and Endurance
At its core, Here But Gone is a story about what it means to be truly “here” when physical presence is all that remains. The title itself evokes the paradox: Tom is still present in mind and spirit, yet profoundly absent in body and voice. The novel invites reflection on vulnerability, the illusions of control, and resilience—not as triumphant recovery, but as the daily act of showing up for one another despite overwhelming odds.
Padgett-Clarke’s restrained prose and psychological insight allow the emotional weight to build naturally, creating a narrative that lingers long after the final page. It shines a compassionate light on locked-in syndrome and its toll on loved ones, offering readers a thoughtful meditation on human fragility and the quiet endurance of familial love.
Kim Padgett-Clarke


Here But Gone is an emotional rollercoaster that asks how a family survives when the person they love is still there, yet suddenly unreachable. It is about the shock that lingers long after disaster, and the painful, silent spaces where love has to find a new way to exist. The story was inspired by reading about a woman living with locked-in syndrome and the unimaginable reality of being fully aware, yet unable to respond to the world around her. I was struck by how little this condition is understood, and by the frightening thought that it could happen to any one of us. I found myself asking what I would cling to, how I would endure, and how those closest to me would cope. Those questions became the emotional core of this novel.
-Kim Padgett-Clarke
Kim Padgett-Clarke resides in Blackpool, a vibrant seaside town in the North West of England. Her writing draws inspiration from the diverse and colorful characters around her. Beginning her career with over 70 short stories published in magazines and anthologies, she has since authored novels including Pain and Made of Glass. Here But Gone stands as a powerful continuation of her focus on authentic human experiences, emotional depth, and the realities of profound change.
This compelling novel is a testament to the idea that love can endure even when everything else shifts irrevocably. For readers seeking a story that blends heartache with hope and provokes meaningful reflection, Here But Gone is an unforgettable read.
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